My Young Pup in his Element

We were blessed with some really beautiful weather last month so my young pup and I took the opportunity to spend some time in a nearby forest. 

Follow proved to be very good at finding secluded spots and it's funny to see him disappear into ferns and brambles only to reappear further along the path with a big smile on his face. He's also very good at beating a path suitable for me to access the chosen spot for our fun and games. He's definitely a good dog in that respect.

Most of our time there was spent on puppy training and it was really lovely to have lots of space to lead him around on my leash. Even better though was being able to have him pee against a tree.

The only inconvenience was that with all the leaves on the ground some toys got left behind. My young pup has been back there a couple of times since (he goes running as often as possible) but hasn't yet seen a squirrel brandishing a riding crop, grin. I must train him to take better care of my belongings.

Today's Mood in Musique

Following today's previous post

The Morning After 24 Hours Non-Stop with My Pet

Although it's not the first time we have been able to spend a day and a night together, it's sufficiently rare for it to be something special, savoured and earmarked.

A busy schedule leaves me little time for writing at the moment so I'm just posting a photo to mark the event.

A Busy and Eventful Month in a few Paragraphs

It's been over a month now since my last post and although I've been quiet on the blog front there have been a lot of things going on.

The two day trial with the submissive G was not decisive or perhaps I should say that it was. Not that I could find fault with G; as a submissive he is genuine and I like him as a person. But I felt no physical attraction for him and reading the diary he had started as soon as I had agreed to give him a try revealed that he had hopes of vanilla stuff like cuddling. This prompted me to put an end to things quickly. Not an easy thing to do but we got over it and since then G has renewed with his former Mistress.

This trial of bringing a second sub into the scene has made some things very clear: To start with it's too soon, I've still got a lot to do to make the base solid, my pup still has a lot to learn, and so do I. The other thing is that I need to think more about how other subs can integrate and be integrated in the big picture, bearing in mind that, although my search didn't include anything romantic, I've got all the romantic I could ever dream of.

In the mean time my slave Follow is being true to his slave name. Recent events and opportunities have brought me to a place where I can envisage making my next moves towards my main goals. This involves my moving home several hundred kilometres away before the end of the year. I explained all of this to my pet because I wanted to know if he was really ready to follow me and if so what conditions needed to be provided for. This resulted in a steam of assurances, confessions, more time spent together, small symbolic gifts, more and more opening up and a plead to be tattooed.

The energy from all this is fuelling my progression towards my goals and colouring them at the same time. I can feel the things I desire moving closer and closer, much closer than I'd felt them just a few months ago.

And while things are lining themselves up nicely for my next move forward I've also had opportunities to improve my bondage techniques. During his 2 day stay, I took G to an SM club where a bondage workshop was being held. It turned out that it was shibari where the knots are quite simple (but solid), and symmetry is at best ignored. Whereas most of my efforts have been spent trying to achieve a prettier style more in line with what the two knotty boys teach. I learnt some useful things like how to join to lengths of rope together easily and solidly and some suspension techniques. Although I can't explore the suspension techniques out just yet for want of some very solid, conveniently placed ceiling hooks or better.

I have tried out combining my newly learned techniques with my obsessiveness for symmetry on my young pup and I am pleased with the result. The bigger, less decorative knots are not only easier to tie, they also look good on a male submissive and allow a tighter fit. The bondage starts with rope doubled and worked around the hands before being run up to shoulder-blade height, around my pup's arms and back round to loop round itself and move back in the opposite direction this time slightly lower in order to make the breast area more prominent. Once the solid base providing “hookage” for attaching my pup to a hook in the ceiling was finished, I ran the two ends of the rope separately around his body incorporating more symmetry and aiming to outline different parts of his body. To finish off some simple binding of his legs down to just below his knees prevented him from being able to achieve more than a hobble over to where I was to string him up before adding nipple clamps. He was in heaven, he could hardly move, couldn't see anything and had no choice but undergo any torturing or teasing inspired by seeing him there like that while I sat working on my computer, just a riding crop's length away.

A Quick Update

Things have been a bit busy since my last post. I got back from a short break in Turkey a couple of days ago and have just been to meet my 4^th grandchild who was born early this morning. I also have a second submissive, another G, so from now on I will refer to my young pub as “Follow”, the slave name I chose for him last year. In this part of the world, the first letter of a dog's name corresponds to the year of birth. Last year it was “F” and I'd decided that my slave must follow me without me overly worrying about the accursed hows. Recent events have once again confirmed my belief that he will indeed follow me where I intend to go.

But back to my new submissive, G. I met him at a play party over a month ago although I didn't play with him at all. He systematically came and sat at my feet whenever the occasion presented itself and generally made him self useful getting me drinks, lighting my cigarettes and holding an ashtray for me. Not particularly good looking but pleasant and obviously trying to charm me and gain my favours for something more serious than a spanking session.

The request to be allowed to apply for consideration (translation of some flowery French) arrived a few days later by e-mail. He lives a long way away from me and I've no idea how he will fit in with my plans but real service orientated subs aren't that easy to find. So I explained the current situation and told him that although I had no idea how it could work out with the distance, and more importantly, our differences in fetish tastes, I would give him a chance.

So far it's been too virtual for me in spite of flowers for Valentine's day, numerous e-mails and almost daily phone calls. However the next two days should help me to get a better idea while showing him what I expect from a submissive male. He's arriving tomorrow morning and staying until Friday evening. 

I feel I have to be very careful here as he is obviously falling for me in a big way. So the quicker I can evaluate whether there is really a match or not, the better.

A Nice Surprise

Yesterday evening my young pup surprised me by announcing that he's been working on his English for the last two months. This was during an exchange of text messages during one of his rest periods as he's on service. I'm not a great fan of texting but it does allow us to stay in contact more easily and it allows him to communicate more freely than when actually in my presence. It also has the added advantage of allowing me to reread and transcribe the most interesting parts of a conversation after the fact. It's very useful for picking up on things that I might have missed during a phone conversation and in this case for sharing here some snippets.

And so, he announced that he's been working on his English because he believes that I deserve to own a dog who is cultivated, and after I had thanked and congratulated him he started to text in English:

"Thank you very much. i am your slave and it is a great honour."

To this I replied that I'm sure that hearing him say that to me with his French accent will surely be an even greater turn on, his response:

"i don't know, you will make me shy if i speak to you in english."

Knowing him it probably will. I'm going to have to do some serious thinking on how to help him on this. His shyness is very sweet but it sure complicates things at times.

And so it continued:

"ok i imagine that i leave you alone to look at your film. I'm going to take a shower mistress."

"i am your dog. If you need to say to me something, i am here for you."

"Never mind I don't sleep yet. Would you like to talk a little?"

"I am in bed"

"right, yes i finish my work, i go at home only tomorrow, i wear only a tee shirt, je peux le retirer, excuse me i don't know to say it."

"Thank you but i have to practice more and more; i am naked. I belong to you, you are my new life"

"when i feel your hands on my body, on my skin, I fall in love"

"so i had a hard-on. You like very much to make me have a hard-on. So it could be wonderful and fascinating if i often could have a hard-on every day."

"You also seduce me each time, it's great; i have no regret, no fear with you. I trust in you. I feel very well with you."

"In this moment, i don't have a hard-on, but in my mind, i am very excited by you. I can't resist. There is no doubt, i am your dog."

"It is hard to be not with you. You deserve a good dog, so I do my best."

"Have a good night and sweet dreams, you are a wonderful Mistress."

So there is room for improvement. But I'm just over the moon that he's making the effort to learn through his own initiative. I find it very significant and it fits in very nicely with my plans. And last but not least, his messages are just as sweet in English as they are in French.

Friday Fun

Have a nice weekend :)

Rope Play

Yesterday morning I tried out an idea I've been mulling over in my head for some time. I started out with a variant of the head cage for which you can find a video showing how to tie it on the Two Knotty Boys website.

I've already tied the head cage and brought the remaining rope back up and out through the knot on the crown of the head before attaching it to a hook on the ceiling over my bed. This time I wanted to use the remaining rope to simply continue the bondage on my slave's body. So once the head cage tied, I let the remaining rope run down his back and tied another knot just below his collar then brought the two lengths over his shoulders, tied another knot and continued round to the back again where I tied yet another knot and then ran the rope up to the knot just below his collar and down again, tightening it to lift his head up.

The rest I think can be figured out by looking at the photos.

The problem I have with long lengths of rope is that it makes it harder to tie fancy knots, something I can about manage laying the rope flat on a table but not when working on a body.

But where I really need to make progress is keeping everything symmetric and tight enough, especially with nylon rope.

The batteries in my camera were on their last legs and so I wasn't able to take new photos once I'd readjusted the rope for symmetry.

I think a black Spandex male version of a cat suit would be a good idea for the next time I play with white rope :)

Decisions and Evolutions

So now I had to decide whether to continue as G's teacher, adopt him as my novice slave or simply end our relationship. I opted for the first solution. I enjoy his presence; as well as being physically attractive he has a pleasant, respectful and graceful character and I've never had the impression that he was expecting anything in return for his service. I couldn't see it lasting very long as for me his age and profession represented obstacles to the 24/7 relationship I'm looking to create. But I could see no reason for not continuing to just enjoy the relationship as it was and besides, I felt he needed someone to keep an eye on him and guide him to prevent him getting himself into trouble.

The first thing that needed doing was to get him to clear all the shit that had been put into his head concerning D/s relationships and then have him express his desires and inclinations. Because as far as I'm concerned it isn't All about what I want and need. That sort of thinking is great in fantasy tales but not in a real relationship. That done we were ready to continue our mutual exploration on healthier terms.

But very quickly he started to express just how deep his feelings for me were and his desire to become my slave “for at least 20 years”. To start with I tried to remain detached just as I had before when he had told me I was beautiful (after receiving him at 7:30 a.m. in my pj's!) and even teased him about my probable capabilities of swinging a flogger at 71. However there is a limit to the number of times I can hear someone as attractive as he is say to me: “You're beautiful” and “Madame, je vous aime” before I capitulate. To cut things short I started to fall in love with him, both as a slave and a man, and still am in love with him.

It hasn't all been plain sailing; there have been breathtakingly beautiful moments but also very painful periods filled with doubt and anger. But I don't regret one minute of it. Taking a step back and looking at all that has passed so far, I can see how getting certain buttons pushed by some of the events has helped me grow personally and that in itself is priceless.

From here onwards I will be writing about certain past events without any concerns about chronology as well as of other aspects of our relationship, my encounters with other submissive males (because it is my intention to have 3) and other related musings.

The Novice Submissive, the Virtual Domme and the Tangible Teacher

During the weeks following our first in-person encounter, G, as I will refer to him for the moment, came to my home as often as our respective plannings allowed. On these occasions I had him do housework and give me foot massages; used him to practice bondage on or as a foot stool; introduced him to things like clothes-pins on his nipples – which brought a tear to his eyes – and over the knee bare hand spanking which he took to straight away. As he wasn't my submissive, the most intimate thing I allowed him was to lick my feet and suck my toes. Although I will admit that I couldn't resist fondling his body whenever I got a chance to – grin.

Because of his shyness, e-mails and conversations on msn served as valuable tools for getting him to express his thoughts and feelings on his submission and his experiences during our in-person encounters.

His biggest fears initially were of failing to do things properly and not being good enough. These I was able calm easily because for me motivation is the most important part and so if something wasn't executed to my liking I would explain calmly what was wrong and how I expected it to be done.

A question that came up at the beginning was whether he should consider me as his Mistress or not. As I believe that a submissive can only have one Mistress it was decided that he should consider me as his teacher. This dynamic served to maintain a certain distance between us and contributed to him feeling that he could ask me questions that he didn't think he could ask his Domme.

Obviously I was also regularly in contact with his Domme, keeping her informed of his progress, sending her the occasional photo and discussing further training for him – although she seemed more concerned with him learning to do housework than anything else.

After a very promising start I rapidly began to see problems appearing on the horizon. G started asking me if he should continue certain things that his Domme had told him to do, such as wear stockings and use a dildo on himself. I'm not into cross-dressing and I don't see the point of a sub giving himself pleasure but told him to obey her if that's what she ordered. At the same time he seemed to very confused about whether he should now consider his cock or his ass as being his sexual organ. Some questioning revealed that he'd been told that he would be required to have passive sex with other men. I asked him that was something that appealed to him in some way and his response was: “No, but I'm ready to accept if She desires it”. When I asked her about it she replied that it was to test his motivation so I advised G to wait until he had met her before consenting to anything like that and also to think very carefully about what he might be letting himself in for.

This, and some other things that I won't go into here, was for me a sign that there were major incompatibilities between her style and mine and that we wouldn't be able to continue for very long before it became a problem. I knew I wouldn't be able to just sit back and watch her turn him into something he didn't really want to become and that if he were to continue with her I would have to retire from the picture. But I felt I had to stay in the scene a while longer otherwise I would have been abandoning him. I think that if I hadn't agreed to participate he would have got fed up with the situation and already put and end to it. As it was, he was expressing more and more his appreciation of being able to explore his submission and serve.

I encouraged them both to arrange to meet each other as soon as possible so that he could make an informed choice. To no avail. The weeks slipped past and there was always something preventing her from either coming to our city or receiving him.

Nearly 2 months had gone past when G asked me if I would be angry with him if he decided to not pursue things further with his supposed Domme. I told him that on the contrary I would be relieved if he did and why; something I hadn't done before because I felt it was necessary for him to draw his own conclusions.

A few days later he submerged me with text messages explaining why he had finally decided to put an end to a virtual relationship with a person he was now convinced was manipulator and venal. The question now was whether I was willing to continue his education or not and if so under what conditions.

Two White Roses and a Shy Smiling Face Looking Down at Me...

were the first things I saw on opening the door on the appointed date and time. I invited him in, thanked him for the roses and then led him into the living room.

I rarely have a sub strip off his clothes straight away on the first visit but I decided to do so this time. I placed a rug on the floor where he was to kneel once he was undressed and then sat on the sofa to enjoy the show. He was quick to obey in spite of his apparent embarrassment and the removed clothing revealed a totally hairless (shaved) body that was visually pleasing to me. The best description I can find is “slightly padded”, not fat but not skinny either; a body that is fun to play with, especially with floggers and other impact toys.

Rather than have him do housework I had him take care of a pair of my leather boots which were in need of a good cleaning. The result was lovely, I'd never seen them shine like that before, but not really surprising as his profession is connected to military.

Then I instructed him to make me a cup of tea and here he surprised me by kneeling down before me to present the cup to me without me having tell him to do so.

Now that he was visibly a bit more at ease with finding himself naked in front of a woman he'd never met before, I had him kneel before me on the rug again and asked him questions about his desire to serve and submit whilst sipping my tea. The main impression I got throughout the conversation was of a polite, soft-spoken, sincere and motivated sub. Albeit a shy and nervous one.

My tea finished I decided to move on to one of my favourite activities: bondage. This, as every thing else was, was totally new to him so I kept it fairly light and after asking him if he was ok with me taking some photos I slipped a spandex hood on him and started shooting.

Then I grabbed my floggers and gave him a small taste of very light flogging but saw that he was less at ease with this. So I had him give me a foot massage which he performed very well.

I only kept him for about an hour and a half before releasing him as I had other things on my agenda, one of which was to inform his Mistress that she had found herself a very promising submissive.