Introducing C

C first contacted me last summer with an pm on Fetlife. Not really the place I expected to find a submissive, even if I do receive pms from submissives seeking a relationship from time to time, but then life is full of surprises and sometimes they are good ones. He very politely explained that he had had phantasms since his adolescence (he's 32, the same age as Follow) but as he had never encountered someone with whom he could explore them they had so far remained just phantasms and so he had decided that it was time to actively search someone experienced. Which is why he was contacting me as he had seen my profile on a regional bdsm site and found me on Fetlife (I discovered later on that he had scoured this blog as well but he hasn't been back since I told him which ISP he uses and how I know lol). 

I responded with an invitation to tell me more about his phantasms and we continued to exchange messages throughout the following few months (summer holidays and a peak work load meant that it wasn't possible for me to initiate a physical meeting for some time). His phantasms are quite different to Follow's (except for bondage) and I saw the possibility of exploring things that hadn't really been possible with F because F wasn't really into pain (well he was more towards the end than in the beginning but he still didn't get any pleasure out of being flogged more than lightly and I find no pleasure in inflicting pain on someone who doesn't enjoy it).

Exploring new things and initiating a novice are things I enjoy and so without any expectations as to where this would go, invited C to my place at the beginning of November with the reassurance that he would live to tell the tale. 

He was very nervous when he arrived "armed" with a box of (absolutely delicious, no, scrumptious would be a better word) chocolates. We had a drink and chatted a bit before I had him strip off his clothes, collared him, and then lead him upstairs to my bedroom where I have all my instruments and a four-poster bed which serves as a good replacement for a St Andrew's cross. There I tied him between the posts and we started our exploration of the real extent of his masochism. Nipple clamps, flogging, whipping, he soaked it all in and had a hard-on most of the time. After-care consisted of more chatting and another drink before sending him home. It wasn't easy to tell what was going on inside him but C had no problems expressing that by email the next day when things had had time to settle a little. The resulting email described the sensations and emotions he had experienced, the effect they (and the marks on his body) continued to have on him throughout the following day and expressed the desire to be allowed to come and kneel at my feet again.

And so began an interesting exploration of which I will talk more about in the following days and, I hope, months.

A Busy and Eventful Month in a few Paragraphs

It's been over a month now since my last post and although I've been quiet on the blog front there have been a lot of things going on.

The two day trial with the submissive G was not decisive or perhaps I should say that it was. Not that I could find fault with G; as a submissive he is genuine and I like him as a person. But I felt no physical attraction for him and reading the diary he had started as soon as I had agreed to give him a try revealed that he had hopes of vanilla stuff like cuddling. This prompted me to put an end to things quickly. Not an easy thing to do but we got over it and since then G has renewed with his former Mistress.

This trial of bringing a second sub into the scene has made some things very clear: To start with it's too soon, I've still got a lot to do to make the base solid, my pup still has a lot to learn, and so do I. The other thing is that I need to think more about how other subs can integrate and be integrated in the big picture, bearing in mind that, although my search didn't include anything romantic, I've got all the romantic I could ever dream of.

In the mean time my slave Follow is being true to his slave name. Recent events and opportunities have brought me to a place where I can envisage making my next moves towards my main goals. This involves my moving home several hundred kilometres away before the end of the year. I explained all of this to my pet because I wanted to know if he was really ready to follow me and if so what conditions needed to be provided for. This resulted in a steam of assurances, confessions, more time spent together, small symbolic gifts, more and more opening up and a plead to be tattooed.

The energy from all this is fuelling my progression towards my goals and colouring them at the same time. I can feel the things I desire moving closer and closer, much closer than I'd felt them just a few months ago.

And while things are lining themselves up nicely for my next move forward I've also had opportunities to improve my bondage techniques. During his 2 day stay, I took G to an SM club where a bondage workshop was being held. It turned out that it was shibari where the knots are quite simple (but solid), and symmetry is at best ignored. Whereas most of my efforts have been spent trying to achieve a prettier style more in line with what the two knotty boys teach. I learnt some useful things like how to join to lengths of rope together easily and solidly and some suspension techniques. Although I can't explore the suspension techniques out just yet for want of some very solid, conveniently placed ceiling hooks or better.

I have tried out combining my newly learned techniques with my obsessiveness for symmetry on my young pup and I am pleased with the result. The bigger, less decorative knots are not only easier to tie, they also look good on a male submissive and allow a tighter fit. The bondage starts with rope doubled and worked around the hands before being run up to shoulder-blade height, around my pup's arms and back round to loop round itself and move back in the opposite direction this time slightly lower in order to make the breast area more prominent. Once the solid base providing “hookage” for attaching my pup to a hook in the ceiling was finished, I ran the two ends of the rope separately around his body incorporating more symmetry and aiming to outline different parts of his body. To finish off some simple binding of his legs down to just below his knees prevented him from being able to achieve more than a hobble over to where I was to string him up before adding nipple clamps. He was in heaven, he could hardly move, couldn't see anything and had no choice but undergo any torturing or teasing inspired by seeing him there like that while I sat working on my computer, just a riding crop's length away.

Rope Play

Yesterday morning I tried out an idea I've been mulling over in my head for some time. I started out with a variant of the head cage for which you can find a video showing how to tie it on the Two Knotty Boys website.

I've already tied the head cage and brought the remaining rope back up and out through the knot on the crown of the head before attaching it to a hook on the ceiling over my bed. This time I wanted to use the remaining rope to simply continue the bondage on my slave's body. So once the head cage tied, I let the remaining rope run down his back and tied another knot just below his collar then brought the two lengths over his shoulders, tied another knot and continued round to the back again where I tied yet another knot and then ran the rope up to the knot just below his collar and down again, tightening it to lift his head up.

The rest I think can be figured out by looking at the photos.

The problem I have with long lengths of rope is that it makes it harder to tie fancy knots, something I can about manage laying the rope flat on a table but not when working on a body.

But where I really need to make progress is keeping everything symmetric and tight enough, especially with nylon rope.

The batteries in my camera were on their last legs and so I wasn't able to take new photos once I'd readjusted the rope for symmetry.

I think a black Spandex male version of a cat suit would be a good idea for the next time I play with white rope :)

The Novice Submissive, the Virtual Domme and the Tangible Teacher

During the weeks following our first in-person encounter, G, as I will refer to him for the moment, came to my home as often as our respective plannings allowed. On these occasions I had him do housework and give me foot massages; used him to practice bondage on or as a foot stool; introduced him to things like clothes-pins on his nipples – which brought a tear to his eyes – and over the knee bare hand spanking which he took to straight away. As he wasn't my submissive, the most intimate thing I allowed him was to lick my feet and suck my toes. Although I will admit that I couldn't resist fondling his body whenever I got a chance to – grin.

Because of his shyness, e-mails and conversations on msn served as valuable tools for getting him to express his thoughts and feelings on his submission and his experiences during our in-person encounters.

His biggest fears initially were of failing to do things properly and not being good enough. These I was able calm easily because for me motivation is the most important part and so if something wasn't executed to my liking I would explain calmly what was wrong and how I expected it to be done.

A question that came up at the beginning was whether he should consider me as his Mistress or not. As I believe that a submissive can only have one Mistress it was decided that he should consider me as his teacher. This dynamic served to maintain a certain distance between us and contributed to him feeling that he could ask me questions that he didn't think he could ask his Domme.

Obviously I was also regularly in contact with his Domme, keeping her informed of his progress, sending her the occasional photo and discussing further training for him – although she seemed more concerned with him learning to do housework than anything else.

After a very promising start I rapidly began to see problems appearing on the horizon. G started asking me if he should continue certain things that his Domme had told him to do, such as wear stockings and use a dildo on himself. I'm not into cross-dressing and I don't see the point of a sub giving himself pleasure but told him to obey her if that's what she ordered. At the same time he seemed to very confused about whether he should now consider his cock or his ass as being his sexual organ. Some questioning revealed that he'd been told that he would be required to have passive sex with other men. I asked him that was something that appealed to him in some way and his response was: “No, but I'm ready to accept if She desires it”. When I asked her about it she replied that it was to test his motivation so I advised G to wait until he had met her before consenting to anything like that and also to think very carefully about what he might be letting himself in for.

This, and some other things that I won't go into here, was for me a sign that there were major incompatibilities between her style and mine and that we wouldn't be able to continue for very long before it became a problem. I knew I wouldn't be able to just sit back and watch her turn him into something he didn't really want to become and that if he were to continue with her I would have to retire from the picture. But I felt I had to stay in the scene a while longer otherwise I would have been abandoning him. I think that if I hadn't agreed to participate he would have got fed up with the situation and already put and end to it. As it was, he was expressing more and more his appreciation of being able to explore his submission and serve.

I encouraged them both to arrange to meet each other as soon as possible so that he could make an informed choice. To no avail. The weeks slipped past and there was always something preventing her from either coming to our city or receiving him.

Nearly 2 months had gone past when G asked me if I would be angry with him if he decided to not pursue things further with his supposed Domme. I told him that on the contrary I would be relieved if he did and why; something I hadn't done before because I felt it was necessary for him to draw his own conclusions.

A few days later he submerged me with text messages explaining why he had finally decided to put an end to a virtual relationship with a person he was now convinced was manipulator and venal. The question now was whether I was willing to continue his education or not and if so under what conditions.

Two White Roses and a Shy Smiling Face Looking Down at Me...

were the first things I saw on opening the door on the appointed date and time. I invited him in, thanked him for the roses and then led him into the living room.

I rarely have a sub strip off his clothes straight away on the first visit but I decided to do so this time. I placed a rug on the floor where he was to kneel once he was undressed and then sat on the sofa to enjoy the show. He was quick to obey in spite of his apparent embarrassment and the removed clothing revealed a totally hairless (shaved) body that was visually pleasing to me. The best description I can find is “slightly padded”, not fat but not skinny either; a body that is fun to play with, especially with floggers and other impact toys.

Rather than have him do housework I had him take care of a pair of my leather boots which were in need of a good cleaning. The result was lovely, I'd never seen them shine like that before, but not really surprising as his profession is connected to military.

Then I instructed him to make me a cup of tea and here he surprised me by kneeling down before me to present the cup to me without me having tell him to do so.

Now that he was visibly a bit more at ease with finding himself naked in front of a woman he'd never met before, I had him kneel before me on the rug again and asked him questions about his desire to serve and submit whilst sipping my tea. The main impression I got throughout the conversation was of a polite, soft-spoken, sincere and motivated sub. Albeit a shy and nervous one.

My tea finished I decided to move on to one of my favourite activities: bondage. This, as every thing else was, was totally new to him so I kept it fairly light and after asking him if he was ok with me taking some photos I slipped a spandex hood on him and started shooting.

Then I grabbed my floggers and gave him a small taste of very light flogging but saw that he was less at ease with this. So I had him give me a foot massage which he performed very well.

I only kept him for about an hour and a half before releasing him as I had other things on my agenda, one of which was to inform his Mistress that she had found herself a very promising submissive.

How a Stray Pup Finds his Way to My Front Door

A Domme who I had met on a few occasions and chatted with on msn from time to time approached me in late March to ask me if I would be willing to meet a sub she was interested in for her. She lives several hours away from the city in which I and the sub in question both live in and wanted to make sure that he was genuine before starting to make arrangements to meet him in person. In return, and in the event of course that he was a genuine sub, she proposed to lend him to me whenever I wanted to use him.

I was in a relationship that was in the process of coming to an end for the second time in 6 months and feeling the frustration that comes from not being able to do all that I had lined up for a sub because he was going cold turkey. So the idea of having access to some no-strings-for-me service and a “victim” to practice on was very tempting and we came to the agreement that I would check him out and even start training him for her.

When she gave me his msn id and told me where he lived I realised that I'd turned this sub down a couple of months previously when he'd contacted me on a dating site. For me he was too young, only 28, and his profession incompatible with the relationship I have in mind. But in the context of our arrangement these arguments became non issues. I wasn't planning on using him for more than some house cleaning and to practice bondage on and I didn't expect the arrangement to last very long either, even if he was as sincere as his Domme seemed to think him to be.

A few days later she started up a 3 way chat, gave him his orders (which were to follow mine) and then left us. A rapid webcam session revealed a good looking but shy young man. I answered his questions and reassured him a bit, then, having agreed on a date and time convenient for both of us for him to present himself and serve me for a couple of hours, said goodnight.